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assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh ~

sungguh aku bersyukur berada di sini
ke CUCMS aku jejaki
ini semua takdir Ilahi
aku cuma boneka di bumi

walaupun hanya boneka semata
jangan lupa kita hamba
ada tugas yang ditetapkan-Nya
carilah sebab mengapa kita dicipta

menjadi pemimpin di bumi
itulah tugas dari dulu lagi
tapi apa yang kita lihat hari ini?
menghancur membunuh di sana sini

di manakah manusia pengaman bumi
hari ini sukar ditemui
tetapi aku percaya ada di sana sini
sedang mempersiap diri

bukan ingin menunding jari
hanya catatan yang ingin dikongsi
juga sebagai peringatan kepada diri
semoga menjadi penegak agama suatu hari nanti.

Insyaallah~

New life

Assalamualaikum and good morning everyone ^^ salam nuzul quran semua.

Sekarang dah mula kehidupan dkt cucms. Orang lain ramai yg duduk asrama dr form 1 n dr form 4. Aku? Duduk asrama plkn sekejap je hari tu.. selebihnya, duduk bawah ketiak mak.

"Eee anak mak~"

Abih tu awak tu anak sape? Anak nenekmu? Haha. Rindu memang rindu. Hari2 mmg teringat. Tp i know my mom wants me to be happy with or without her, wherever i am. Ye dak? Being happy here doesnt mean i forget my family kan?

If i keep on going like "waaa umi.. rindunya umi. X best la sini xde umi.. umi nak balik.. umi.. umi.." she's going to be worried for no reason. I dont have to act like a cry baby to express my love.. just simple daily calls and "i love you" is enough i guess.

And umi, im fine here. dont worry about me. I miss you and i love you. :*

Assalamualaikum and good day.

pre-farewell

Assalamualaikum

Hey ya! I'm going to be 18 soon. I didn't expect this before but now i know that this year, the celebration is going to be quite different. On 10th july, on that very date, im going to leave home. For cyberjaya uni college medical science (cucms) to further my study. Hmm. I'm always excited with the idea of start studying. I'm also quite okay with the idea of leaving home as I've sort of experience that during the plkn. But on my birthday? Really? Out of all the days, it has to be on my birthday, huh? Honestly it's quite disappointing but... at least i can still see my family on that day. It's not that i have to go one day earlier right? It could be worse. Then i have to celebrate it silently, by myself, surrounded by strangers. Yeah thats the spirit. Alhamdulillah

Guilt

Met ibu mas last friday at the pasar. It was a short greeting yet very meaningful. I respect her. She gave me the opportunity to work with her in taska nur niyaz. Since i cant travel far(takda lesen) and i cant stay home and do nothing while waiting for spm result. I worked at the taska. She tought me a lot even though it was just a month and a half (berhenti awal sebab pergi plkn). It was an experience that not anyone can get.

But i think i made her disappointed. At the market she told me the taska was going to have a tahlil on the next day. She really hope that i could come. But eventually, on the next day, i was like "ok. What should i do today?" N i decided to watch the tv all day. And later, "oh my god. the tahlil was yesterday!". she must be really disappointed. huaaa~ what do i do? :'(

We are all struggling

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh ~

dari pada awal tahun 2013 lagi aku duk perhati sorang budak ni. si pulan ni tersangat lah baik orangnya. sopan santun, berbudi pekerti, tiptop kata kau! and i yang terlebih prihatin ni pun terfikir,

'baik sangat budak ni. agak2 budak ni mengumpat ke tak?'

kalau nak ikutkan, semua orang mengumpat antara satu sama lain. okey maybe tak semua orang. cuma bersangka buruk tu kadang2 memang susah nak dielakkan kan? so, aku perhati je budak ni. kononnya nak jadi mcm role model (kononnya) tp aku sendiri rasa diri aku makin parah duduk potpet, sakitkan hati orang sana sini.

'bestnya kalau jadi dia. tak payah tanggung dosa mulut banyak2. mulut dia mmg pandai diam' kata satu suara dari mana entah.

semakin hari semakin aku kagum dengan dia.. cakap benda baik je. sampai satu tahap,

'eleh dia boleh la. mulut dia memang jenis baik' suara tu berbunyi lagi.

kekaguman aku tu kekal smpai hari terakhir sekolah. di pertengahan SPM hari tu. kami melepak di pss bersama junior2. saya sedang duduk di atas kerusi berdekatan pintu masuk, melakukan apekebendetah. tiba2, si pulan lalu di depan pintu pss dan PAPP!! aku terdengar kata2nya. walaupun sepintas lalu.

walaupun antara dengar dan tak dengar, entah kenapa aku macam pasti yang aku tak salah dengar.
dia mengutuk! aku dah la terkejut dia mengutuk org. mengutuk aku pulak tu! memang masa tu macam DANG! siling pss runtuh. terkesima sekejap. terus aku tak mampu nak pandang muka dia dah lepas tu. takut hati mengutuk. sebab aku tahu. dia bukannya sengaja mengutuk aku. Allah yang jawab persoalan aku melalui dia.

Allah nak aku tahu yang syaitan itu ada di mana-mana dan menggoda manusia tak kira tinggi rendah imannya. bertepatan dengan tajuk post ni, we are all struggling. kita semua sedang berusaha menjadi hamba yang terbaik (insyaallah). jangan ingat yang nampak baik tu sudah selesa. dia juga sedang berusaha menjaga perlakuannya (kadang-kadang terlepas juga). Mulut terutamanya bagi perempuan and mata terutamanya bagi lelaki.

pernah ada terbaca satu post....

"apabila perempuan menangis, mereka menutup mulutnya (dgn tangan), manakala lelaki menutup matanya (dgn tngan) apabila menangis. seolah-olah mereka tahu anggota mana yang paling banyak melakukan dosa."

pernah baca? aku pun was like 'eh ye jugak' bila baca post tersebut.

so, pengajarannya kita semua tengah berusaha menjaga iman kita. itu fitrah manusia. jadi, jangan kita yang jadi pengganggu dalam usaha orang lain. jangan kita yang ajak orang mengumpat, say no to maksiat!

ye girls. i know susah nak tinggalkan gossip2 semua tp semua usaha ada permulaan. and mulakan hari ni. bukan esok sebab esok akan jadi lusa, tulat, dan seterusnya. mulakan sikit-sikit, niat kerana ALLAH TAALA. dia maha melihat apa yang kau usahakan. JOM HIJRAH SAMA-SAMA? *reach hand*

assalamualaikumussalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh~

Comeback

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh ~

amacam? sihat? ada rindu blog ni? xde? takpe.
biarlah hanya aku yang merindui mu wahai blog. (Oookey =.=')

hai semua! tadaa! as this is my first post of the year, lets start over.

HI! IM DINA. AND YOU?

so hari ni 26/3 which is 6  hari selepas result SPM hari tu and ye saya baru nk bagi khabar. Tahniah kepada semua candidates SPM batch '96! *clap clap clap* segala hasil yang kita usahakan selama 5 tahun dah pun dituai dipetik diambil dikutip watsoever bla bla. kepada yg berpuas hati tahniah! congratulations! kepada yang tidak berpuas hati, jangan risau. Insyaallah Allah hold dulu kejayaan kita untuk masa depan nanti.

apa-apa pun, to my friends. batch '96 SMK Bandar Tasik Puteri,

im glad that we were all in this together (HSM kah?). dear brothers and sisters. thank you for being there for me. we cried, we laughed, we fought, we went crazy, those hurtful confession, every conflict, we went through together. it is hard to accept that we wont meet each other everyday like we used to do. you're the best-est friends that i could ever hope for. i may be annoying but you guys treated me like uhh *wipe tears* sangat baik. 

sometimes i cried. i should have treated you better. that's what i regret the most. but on the next day, with you guys i went wild. never consider your feelings. i'm sorry. i want you to know that i regretted it almost every night.

im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry.

even though you know i copy-pasted this ^ please know that im sincerely sorry and please forgive me for what i've done. intentionally or unintentionally. and another thing, please know that i appreciate each of your existence in my life. Ya Allah. thank you for sending this people into my life. they treated me well. too well. better than i deserve Ya Allah. Bless them Ya Allah. May us drag each other into your Jannah together with our families. May our ukhuwah stays forever to the Jannah. Ameen.

now that i have written everything i have been wanting to tell you, i feel more relieve. now i can go to PLKN with no regrets. going on 5/4/2014. Kem Benum Hill Resort. fighting Dina! you can do this. pedulikan je pacat watsoever, kau havoc-kan saja kem tersebut ye? Ok bos.

kau memang dah nak pergi PLKN semua bagai baru nak update blog kan? *krik krik*

sampai sini dulu ye babies. ok bukan babies.
assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh ^^